Somewhere only I know

My 90 days is over or not

 

Well as you have known, my 90 days of wellness journey with Coach Jane ended last August 3, 2021. But it doesn't mean that I already achieved my goal. And it doesn't mean that I already stopped or they stopped being my support. 

But after my 90 days, I want to test myself. 

Some of you might not get my point, so let me put it this way, I went to a party and had fun. Music is lively and I eat, laugh and danced. I enjoyed myself but unfortunately it's time to go home. 

I was wondering if I can still continue having fun on my own, in my own home? 

I did not inform my Coach/Ate Jane about it, so I'm very sorry! (Actually I informed her but I was already in my 4rth day of testing myself.)

So for a week I tested myself. If without any support, without any inspiration from my sisters, without any Facebook posting, peeping or sneaking...  can I continue the program on my own with same energy as I started. 

And here's my conclusion:

1. The 90 days program is a good way to build "discipline." If the discipline is well established even in the midst of temptation, you will not sway. 

There will always be temptation, that is a fact, they are all around. From people, to food, to unwillingness/making excuses of not doing things or to simply, being out of focus (because of a TV series that we are watching). But what I learned through the 90 days program is how I chose to live my life: "the-same-old-same-old-ways" or (as Angelica Panganiban puts it) to the "come-back-to-the-young-and-beautiful-you-way." 

The bonus of this program? I get to choose what I want. 

2. Yes! Anybody can do it on their own BUT it is harder when you are alone. 

Without peeking at food posting, I lack inspiration. Although I tried to stay within the protocols, I found that during the week of testing myself, I'm eating the same food all over again. My son brought that to my attention when he said, "Maman, you're eating that 2 days in a row?" with his low key and french accent tone. 

Although I do the set of exercises challenges, I find myself not really putting my heart into it. (It's really hard to do it alone, because before I can always hear ate Jane's voice when I'm exercising! Making me focus and do my workouts well.) 

3. Yes! You can do it all on your own BUT it is still better if there's support from people who serves as your motivation.  

I found out that there is a certain power that urges you to continue when you see people around you trying their best to make themselves healthy and happy. I think it is right to say, that if you want to bring out the best in you, you have to surround yourself with people who will not only empower you, believe in you, support you, uplift you, motivate you and appreciate you but they are also leading you to do so because they are the living example themselves. 

Ate Malou, Ate Lans, Ate Ethel, Ate Joy are some people who are my "motivational-sources." Not hearing news about them or from them depletes my energy and I haven't even started my day yet. 

4. Being healthy doesn't stop when your 90 days wellness journey ends, being healthy becomes a lifestyle. 

I find it harder to go back to the ways before because of the good habits I established during these 3 months time. It's also related to the discipline that my Coach/Ate instilled in me. I tried it, I tested myself but there's a voice inside me who's always reminding me that I worked hard to be in this moment of my life, why put them to waste? 

And as my Coach/Ate Jane says "in healthy living, there is no finish line. Everyday, you have the chance and option to do it -- make the wrong things right, make the bad things good, make the fails success."

5. (This one, I added after publishing and hearing from my Coach/Ate) It is scary to continue alone BUT it is scarier to go back to where we were before. 

There will be times in our life where we have to face everything on our own. That is why Coach/Ate Jane emphasizes on the importance of deepening our love for the "new us," so that we will be our own number one cheerer on our own wins and so we will also be able to accept and forgive our own failures. (This is are all from her.)

"Live life as if I am still watching over you, that we are still cheering for you and accepting you whether there are fails." - Jane Bio

6. That happiness is contagious and limiting myself from the source is like depriving myself of being happy. 

A proven fact. Every time that there's "challenge unlocked," from one of the sisters, I will read it with all smiles on my face and in my heart. Though miles apart from everyone, I feel their happiness which in turn makes me happy too. And even in chaos of my everyday life, as long I hear good news from the wellness page, my tiredness will evaporate.

Well I'm on the last day of testing myself and I'm glad I did it. It helped me a lot through discerning the path that I took and I will take. It helped me appreciate more the journey that I took. And looking forward to a more beautiful, younger and healthier me! (Angelica Panganiban, beat that!)

NB: Here's a photo taken yesterday (we are in vacation right now). First time wearing a bathing suit confidently (But still with shorts. Hoping next year, will confidently wear without one. Small steps at a time.)